New Beginnings

Hello, and welcome to my first blog entry and what an entry it is too! I am at the most unsettling point of my life, I have so many mixed emotions; ranging from feeling really excited and optimistic about my future and the fact I am finally free do the things I love, to feeling shit scared, fearful and worrying that will I fail, or even worse, still be unhappy wondering if this is really what I want.

So, I guess I should spill the beans!  I have decided to completely shake up my life and make some drastic changes to fully align myself with my values and what makes me happy. One, because I deserve it and two, because I have been imprisoned by the vice like grip of my fears for too long (at the expense of my health and future happiness) that I’m giving myself full permission to follow my heart and be happy.

After two long years of building and planning I have come to the decision to leave my well paid, full time job in pursuit of my dreams. For too long I have been afraid to give up my job security in favour of coaching beautiful women back to health, because I felt unworthy and I felt like a fraud. Why did I feel like a fraud? Well, I had so many of my own chronic health issues to deal with, which I hid from the world in fear of people finding out and thinking I was a massive fraud. I would tell myself over and over again “how could I possibly guide other women back to full health when my own life was so messed up?” and because of these limiting beliefs I felt massively stuck and frustrated at living a double life.

My 2016 Amazon Rainforest trip was such a massive catalyst in helping me regain my health and reclaiming my power. During my visit I realised just how much my fast paced living and reluctance to follow my heart had been holding me back, to which I had paid a hefty price with my health. Spending time in the rainforest made me realise how misaligned I had become with my soul’s calling. How I had allowed myself to become disillusioned and caught up in the western way of living. Buying unnecessary things, working unnecessarily long hours in a job I hated and as a result I had become totally disconnected from myself and what truly mattered.

In October I’m leaving behind my corporate job, and I’m giving myself full permission to return to Peru to totally immerse myself into jungle life to do my deepest inner healing yet. This will come after an awesome trip around the Cusco Region visiting the Sacred Valley, Machu Picchu and some beautiful high altitude lakes. Then I’ll be travelling to Tarapoto to visit the master plant healing centre, the “Garden of Peace” to spend a month in isolation, experiencing the wonders of plant medicine whilst learning some of the secrets to health and vitality that the indigenous shamanic healers have known for thousands of years. No communication with the outside world, no technology. Nothing but me, in the jungle alone with my thoughts and plant power, in the bosom of mumma nature.

This is literally the most exciting thing I have ever done in my life.  I love working with plant medicine; it is such a powerful catalyst for healing the mental, emotional and spiritual body. It truly connects us with nature and helps align us with our purpose and our heart, whilst freeing us from the chains we build around our own lives.  I don’t know what’s going to happen, or what I’m going to discover.  But I am truly ready to surrender and go with the flow of life. After I return I am really excited about shaping the life I want.  I can create the life I want on my terms. For the first time in my life I am free, and that feels incredible.

I’m not going to lie though; I also feel shit scared!  Scared of the fact I will be working with some of the most powerful, healing plants in the world, which can be really tough.  In return I will have no fixed income and it’s now totally up to me go out there and grab the life I want.  The life that I always dreamed I could have.  I now understand how everything aligns with what you want, when you truly believe you can have it. My advice to you is to never stop believing you can have what you want, as dreams really do come true.

I’m so looking forward to reconnecting with you in December upon my return, fresh and ready to face the world. I will also have some exciting news about my forthcoming 2018 Amazon jungle retreats which I can’t wait to share with you, along with some amazing stories and some wonderful photos. Until then, keep shining.

Love,

Alison

Alison xx

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